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(no subject) [Apr. 24th, 2008|07:57 pm]
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(no subject) [Apr. 17th, 2008|07:47 pm]
[Current Mood |crazycrazy]

C'mon. Gimme a smile. I deleted the previous entry :D I'm fine.

Venting my frustration though, through words. I'd never realise that I'm the literal kinda person. And it's kinda funny that just by blogging I feel like I've laid off some weight on my shoulders. So, here goes:

Anger makes us react in different ways:

1. We fight back.. We defend ourselves from further attack by attacking in return, using either our voices to shout, swear and argue, or our bodies to punch, hit kick or throw crockery. Or we fight back the dignified way, and call in someone to stand up for our rights.
2. We save it. We say nothing at the time, but think, "I'll make him pay for this". While we wait for our chance to get even, we tell everyone how badly he behaved so that they will have negative thoughts about him too. We find ourselves wondering what would happen if he had a breakdown. We might even think how much nicer everything would be be he was dead.
3. We divert it. By venting it on someone eslse, eg, shouting at your friends when it's actually your enemy who'd crossed you.
4. We turn it inside We hurt ourselves because we dare not hurt others, by inwardly shouting abuse at ourselves, punishing our bodies through excessive physical exertion, self-starvation, self-mutilation or wild eating binges.
5. We freeze it. by turning it into hate: the "never ever again" kind of ice-cold anger.
6. We deny it. We swallow it down behind a smile that says, " It doesn't matter, It didn't hurt, of course I'm not angry", while we lock the anger carefully away in a sealed compartment and pretend it isn't there.


Hurray, tmr's friday..

MuchLove, Kat


To seasonal madness and substitutes for love. [Apr. 13th, 2008|07:37 pm]
[Current Music |Fluorescent Adolescent, Arctic Monkeys]

Finally, there's school tomorrow.

I was surfing the net, catching up with some news on the net and happen to saw the news about Cho, the "murderer" of 32 people in a college in the States long ago. Personally, I think he shouldn't be blamed totally. It's the discrimination from people he faces that drives him up to a wall. He's flummoxed, thus losing the ability to discrepate between what's right, and what's wrong. They should have seen it coming from the violent, morbid and mind disturbing scripts, poems and assignments he was told to hand in as an English major. Had anyone been a little more vigilant and took an initiative, it might not have ended up this way, though it's hard to predict what would have happened anyway.

Now, that brings the whole incident into yet another rising problem we face in the world today: Racism. Racism is defined as the belief or doctrine that inherent differences among the various human races determine cultural or individual achievement, usually involving the idea that one's own race is superior and has the right to rule others. Thats the thing we're talking about here. There was once this hit song by the Black Eyed Peas titled "Where is the Love", bet  y'all heard it before, and part of the lyrics goes like this "But when you only have love for your own race, then you're bound to discriminate & to discriminate only generates hate". Now that's what I'm talking about. A plus factor to the tragedy is that Cho was a introvert, a loner. He had no one to confide in, had he?

All these blabberings, without any sense in them, are just exactly what I want to say.


I'm a tad happier today, there's school tomorrow. Yes, school. Say bye to those rotting days and sleepless nights.

Winkzx [Apr. 10th, 2008|01:05 am]
[Current Mood |happyvery happy to the maxx]
[Current Music |ffaf , out of reach]


Someone approached me in msn today. And, I find it totally cool. His msn was rotting there for about 1yr or so? He was someone I was deeply in love with! HAHAHAHA. Hilarious. (he still think i am the xmm he used to know) Back to the topic. And, I started thinking about the things I've done in the past, those times when I hung out with that clique, the whole of 2006. Going for their performances and gigs and supporting them all the way. Had late night movies at town, counting down Christmas and New Year. We even had a reunion dinner, steamboat. I still can clearly remember half of the time I was peeling prawns for Jefferey. Bugis Icon roof top was the best place to hang out. We chill, smoke and let time past. I love the company. Those memorable times. HAHAHAHA, esp The Adventure of Ice. The coolest thing ever, chasing after him and that made me laughed real hard. That was how crazy we were. People looked at them differently. A whole bunch of long hair guys, and some were even longer than mine T_T Lucky I had long hair during those times. And yes, I would never forget how their fans chased after them like mad. Until now, I still have no idea why the whole clique went seperate ways. Due to some conflicts I guess. Happy moments, friends come and go yea?


I think I've changed so much. I used to be those girly vain bimbo that applies make up and dolls up with cute little dresses and yes with heels. I was caught smoking thrice, scoring the worse grades ever and I never fail to dissapoint my parents. Suprisingly, I never been to detention in my life but in house suspension due to smoking. I was once an "ahlian", I think, I am so horrible. HAHAHA. Which is something nothing to be proud of. The people around me pampered me well. I still have my dearest girls, Jeannifer, Roxanne, Shuana and Sally. Looking back, after all these while, they're still there never ending crapping. I have no idea how I live my life for 17years, eating my life away. I live life once, and I did so much. Not alot though. There were happy times and yes sad times too.

I just feel like typing all these. I dont find my past ugly, I FIND IT PRETTY COOL LA DEY.

Anwanw, I need to feature this blog. Khai's blog. IT IS TOTALLY COOL. Dont ask me what, why or what so ever. If you know me well, you'll know :D http://www.and-youare.blogspot.com/

Now, I cant wait for my Man Utd match to start! :D Man Utd is gonna win, trust me darlings.

Metamorphosis [Apr. 8th, 2008|03:17 am]
[Current Mood |HAPPY LA SEY.]

Hello. I am bored. And, I really think soccer is love. And, it rlly irritates me, whenever people say " Soccer bores me, its just 11 man chasing after the ball " Shoot yourself please.

Man Utd rock.
I love to see Sir Alex Ferguson chewing his gum without fail in every single match. You'll never fail to see me enjoying Man Utd matches grinning from ear to ear. They never gives up, preserving all the way. The never say die spirit. The team work, is indescribable. They may not be the fittest soccer players ever, or may not be the best team ever or the best looking kids in town. But they give me a sense of security, making me believe in every match they play, they always perform their best. Soccer was never fair. The referee says it all, the referee may be basie(?) No one said it was fair isnt it. I gotta admit Arsenal, Liverpool, or maybe Chelsea are good, they have good players. Like my favorite, Torres. But, there's something lacking, its different. Well, thats my point of view : D

/ Happy Birthday BestFriend, HoJianHong aka Brad Pitt aka Hong Ge aka Mr Handsome
I'm so happy to have sucha great pal like you. Your stupid jokes, and never ending crap makes my day easily. The times we spent together, are the best days of my life. We've been through so much, so much. I rlly wanna thank you for everything esp the little little things. I will make your wish come true, trust me (: Best Buddies, forever. God Bless.

Another memorable night with you guys. Love you guys plenty. Tan Li Yue, Wendy Lee and Evi. I HAD A HARD TIME WAKING YOU GUYS UP OK, AUNTIE(SZXZX).

/ Happy Birthday Cherron Low Li Yong.

We're still best friends for 5yrs and still counting. Dance classes together. Starbucks together. I love you darling.

Hi, MJ0801D. Class Outing.
This coming Friday.
Venue, timing all not confirm. But, remember to make yourself free! :D

I realised, I have many stalkers stalking my lj. Please, do like at least comment. If not, I'm so gonna lock all my entries. MUWAHAHAHAHAHAH (grins)

Much Love,
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(no subject) [Apr. 3rd, 2008|10:08 pm]
[Current Mood |bouncybouncy]

THIS YEARS APRIL FOOL WAS A BLAST. I was fooled, not once but twice, maybe thrice.
Thanks to my classmates acting. I was lost for words. for.that.moment (see the drift?)

Memorable Aprils Fool Day, cause it falls on the same day with my class chalet. Joke.
Chalet was totally cool aye. Thanks to Finn and his never ending crappy jokes. Thats very usual. And yes, Terry who would never stop imitating my catch phrases. Horrible kids. 6hours of mahjong none stop made me kinda giddy wizzy (the worse, i only won twice?!). I'm erratic from exhaustion. I had a fucking neurotic dream during one of the chalet day(s). Mmm, I rolled down the chalet stairs? Lucky it didnt turn to reality aye. SLEEPLESS NIGHTS. I was sandwiched between Hadi and Khalil. One took my pillow and hug it. The other, keep fidgeting to look for his comfortable position. 3hrs of rest turns out to be 3hrs of closing eyes session. I rock. I stone. I pebble. I just woke up so I'm spewing nonsense as usual. HAHAHAHAA. And yes, not forgetting to mention. We received so many complains from our neighbors. We're way too noisy shouting and screaming at each other and blasting the damn music.  And yes, sad to say, Alicia couldnt stay over. HAHAHAHAHA, she say " LETS OPEN ANOTHER CHALET " Stupid girl.

At the end of the day, the birds kept flying outside our chalet. Everyone kept using my catch phrases. The toilet smell like, idk? I made new friends, and old friends. On a happier note, Class D is still united as ever :D

Reminder : Please bring Baygone, the mosquitoes all breading over there, cockroaches made my GUYS classmates scream like mad, lizards too. Mosquito bites are killing me.

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(no subject) [Mar. 31st, 2008|01:50 am]
[Current Mood |cheerfulcheerful]
[Current Music |You raise me up]

I still cannot get over this completely.

I still can verbally remember, this was the song, that very last song you sent me to encourage me when I'm down. Forever my loved ones. I still cannot believe this day would come to past.

Class Chalet 1,2,3. Love Class D.
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RAISED BY WOLVES [Mar. 27th, 2008|12:50 am]
[Current Mood |draineddrained]
[Current Music |Lifehouse, Whatever it takes.]

I love this picture. It shows my retarded side O:

I rlly think its time to rely on myself. I'm wonderwoman! Forever means nthg. Forever? Piece of crap. Dont give me this shit, I'm not gonna take it. Tsktsk.

These days, I tend to feel a nagging need to succeed, like, you know, try and take over the world. Funny how I was never bothered before, everyday was just a day and nowhere did I see in my future, the quest for world domination.

Now I can see how people get obsessed over money, fame and recognition. That desperate climb to the top so you can hold it over everybody's head and say, "I've made it.", with a smirk. And I think, where the crap have you made it? You with your cool job title and your fancy threads, your famous aquaintances and overrated work achievements, your sense of loss and inability to even comprehend it.

At which point of time while you're trying to "make it" does your priorities get all? Or rather, at which point of time does your already screwed up values get even more confused? Sometimes, I feel myself gravitating toward the career bitch route and then I think to myself, "this is pointless.".  I hate scheming and I hate the idea of whoring yourself just to get ahead in life. Everyday, it's about selling your damn smile, your damn work and whatever you have to offer. We are all whores, whether we like it or not.

On a happier note, Man Utd is gonna win EPL.

Love you guys [Mar. 26th, 2008|01:51 am]
[Current Mood |blankblank]
[Current Music |CHC, Refuge]

It struck me real hard. It bothered me for the whole day. And it brought me to tears.. My heart broke. I recalled how upset I was, but you stood strong. Sorry, I was selfish. I apologize. It'll always be in my heart, those memories. We've been through way too much. I meant it when I say " You guys are my closest friends, you guys are the ones I felt more comfortable with, you guys are the best " I rlly do, but its no longer the same. I love you guys.

I am hungry, I forgot my dinner once again.

You lied, you're nowhere out of sight. I knew it, i expected this someday. It wont last forever. Yes. You wont be there, always.
:D Just smile YuanPing, life is great isnt it.
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Reminisce of Class D, 2008 [Mar. 24th, 2008|02:51 am]
[Current Mood |happyHAHAHAHHA]

Oh no, days has been days. 10 weeks have come to past. Those photos we took, really brought memories of bygone days.

I still can clearly recall aforetime,  we're strangers. The first day of orientation was crap, and so was the second. It didnt brought us together, I dont see any bond in us either. But something real cool happened on the second day of orientation, it was unforgettable. We skipped this so called shitty program together and lepak at Cafe 1. HAHAHA. And we didnt realise, that was the start of our relationship together. As days goes by, we leave our comfort zone and started open up. And, thats where I've found friends.

We skipped the camp together, we physcoed each other to go for the Sentosa trip, the esplanade play, lessons (esp S&W). Class D is sucha awesome class. I could sense that something is different. I'm rlly lovin' in. Every single of us didnt except we would find great pals and made a whole bunch of great friends. Some people say, ite kids are atrocious. I rlly beg to differ.

NCT Revolution was an awesome concert. Rehearsals after rehearsals. I got to know plenty of new friends out there.

I will miss Mr R alot.
I will miss Alicia alot.
I will miss Class D alot.

This whole 10weeks, I made great buds.
Alicia, the one that stood by me whenever I got upset.
B, is always there for me, thank you so much. You're loved.
Steff , that silly willy that likes to laugh at me like mad pig.
And the list goes on.

Classmates, you guys are the best.
Does good things always comes to an end?

Always there? Always there? That phrase have been echoing in my ears for weeks. I stood there, staring blankly awaiting for something, but it turns out awful. All these are white lies. Oh crap. Cut me some slack hun. I gotta admit, I do use these two words often, and easily on others. But I would knew, these little little words would cause sucha big impact on others. Why do people cherish when its gone. Haha, faggots. I hate that idea of it, its too late, way too late.  No matter how easy it is to judge, always, and I mean, always, show consideration for the one you love. But then again, what is love to you? Uh-huh.
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